com·bat
Take action to reduce, destroy, or prevent (something undesirable)
Engage in a fight with; oppose in battle
battle: battle or contend against in or as if in a battle; Combat, or fighting, is purposeful violent conflict meant to establish dominance over the opposition. To battle, to fight; to struggle for victory;
combat fatigue: Psychological disturbance caused by prolonged exposure to active warfare, esp. being under bombardment
So, what's the point of this? This is what I am in, in regards to my life. I see it more clearly today than ever before. Combat: to battle, to fight, to struggle for victory. Nothing about it being easy, which has been my downfall time and time again. I have not been ready to fight. Easily succumbing to "combat fatigue." I have not seen this as the spiritual battle that it is. As long as food holds me captive, as long as my thoughts related to food keep this tight chain like grip on my soul, I will never be free, never change. Satan will steal my joy, my freedom, and essentially my life. Everything that God has planned for me, the gifts he has given me, the times I have not done something I wanted to or should have done because I was too big, or too self-conscious... All of these things stolen from me. All of these things not fulfilled in my life because I allow myself to be held captive. But I'm ready to fight...I'm ready to go to combat. I know it's not going to be easy, and I know that without God, I cannot succeed, but with Him, I can do anything. Leading to this last definition:
Grace:
grace is the only thing that gives us power to stand.
"freedom is itself the most unique grace given humankind by God, the capacity to choose our own way, which must necessarily entail the possibility of choosing poorly. Because we have not always chosen the most graceful path, we have ended up in some miserable, blind alleys along the way. When we grasp our predicament and call for the help we had previously spurned, amazing grace comes to the rescue."
